Recent Events – well since the last blog :P
Hi everyone, sorry i have not updated this blog in so long, its been a rather hectic few months, i will try and summerise so that i don’t waffle too much.
About four months ago i felt very blessed because i had managed to get myself a job on my second interview, little did i know that it was going to prove to be one of the most difficult transitions i would ever have to make, from being a graduate enjoying endless free time, to an average working joe earning a wage every month. nothing quite prepares you for the sheer shock of the pressure and the responsibility. Since then its been a fairly up and down ride, having really good days where everything goes well, i learn a lot and i keep my boss happy, then there are the days where everything just seems set to out of control, i get stressed, i make mistakes, my boss gets irate, and has on more than one occastion threatened my job. In the recent month of January i have really been struggling to settle in, i feel like i am constanly beening belittled for making minor mistakes or not knowing some what my boss calls “simple” things. He has now set me the task of doing 100% of domestic computers and simple business support jobs, an objective i think he knows i cannot complete successfully, and i just feel like i am being set up for a fall, especially when i have a review for that objective next tuesday, but the jokes on him because there is only to of us it technicians working for him and if i leave there will be only one left and the other technician goes on holiday next friday so if he fires me next week he will be right up a creek lol, but thats upto him, as for me i am at the point where loosing my job is more appealing than keeping right now. But i dunno, i am not really sure how to handle the situation, any suggestions please comment below 
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Anyway enough of me complaining about my job, there has been some really exciting developments to, for instance at the beginning of the month my mum got baptised as a believer which was really awesome, its encouraging to see her faith taking strength again, because i know it has been quite difficult for her for a number of years, its good to see her back on track 
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Another really cool thing has been happening with me, in that i am now leading a christian student lifegroup, for one of my two churches. Its been really fun so far, the stuff some of them come out with is incredible, i see this as a way for me to grow in confidence with my faith as well as help them grow nearer to God, i love my lifegroup particularly because we are all friends even outside of the group so thats always a positive when trying to lead them, it helps them get more comfotable i feel. But the only downside to all this is that i have actually been struggling quite deeply with my faith, because of pressures at work, i have stuff happening all the time, IT’S COLD! I am still dealing with a lot of old personal issues i am just feeling realy exhausted in every way, and a little lost in terms of where i am suppose to be going with my life, i am constantly asking myself ‘ am i on the right road, is this truely where i am meant to be?’ so if you are a christian or believe in the power of pray then i would really apreciate it right now, i feel i need God now more than ever but i am struggling to find my footing.
anyway enought for now, I think i have depressed you all enough and contrary to my opening statement i appear to have waffled lol.
See you another time, probably in another 6 months 
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Bye